Remembering all our memories, and it’s times like these that I miss you most, remembering when we were so close.

Momolove

I swear my mom is the nicest mom ever. 

This morning she said she'd cook meesua for my brunch so I went back to my room to study while she cooks. 

After half an hour, she came into my room with a plate of fried noodles -.- I was like "where's my meesua?!!" she said there's no prawns left so abit weird to cook meesua without it.

 I was quite disappointed and angry so I showed a very sad+angry look while eating that plate of noodles. LOL then she was like "you don't like ah? I go cook meesua now!" 

I rejected her cause like quite troublesome to cook again. 

So I ate slowly while studying my econs. 

Another 15 mins later, she came into my room with a pipping hot bowl of meesua! 

Ohgwad I swear I was super touched by it but I didn't express it out. 

So now, im enjoying my meesua while typing this out.

Seriously, my mum is not just a good cook, but also my best friend, my best listening ear and great adviser. She knows every single thing about me and I have never ever lied to her about anything. 

There was once when my friend asked me to lie to her about something. 

I hesitated for awhile while another friend said something like "She will never lie one. She tells her mum everything. And better don't lie, don't break that trust." 

Yes, it's trust that we're talking about.

Since young, curfew never exist in my dictionary and freedom was all I have. 

My mum trusts my brother and I so she gave us the freedom to do everything we wanted.

 But look at the 3 of us, we are all in university now and we don't do drug, smoke or anything that will disappoint them! 

Maybe sometimes our results do disappoint but that's not the point! 

And whenever I received my pay, she will never ever ask me to give her a portion of it. 

She thinks that it is quite mean of her to take my money. 

I study and work part-time is because I need more money for shopping etc.

If she takes my money, wouldn't I have lesser to spend? Then what's the point of working? 

Yeah, that's her logic la! I'm really thankful for it but I've alr told her that I'll start giving her "her allowance" once I found a new job. 

Im hitting 21 soon so it's time for me to take care of them!

Your time with your parents will not last forever. Don't start regretting after you lose them. Cherish them now while you can.

I'm trying to save up so I can bring my mum to china to visit my brother in December! (Tentative) (It was supposed to be Korea :( ) LOL! Alright signing off~

PiqueNique

Despite everyone's busy schedule (due to the nearing of exams), we had a proper meet-up to celebrate Danny's birthday!! Yay so harpee sooooo long since we last had a proper one!! Can't wait for exams to end so we can club & plan our hongkong trip tgt! Hehehe

Snippets

I'll get you by June!

Last photo with Jaffir :(

Favourite bunch of people

Proenza Schouler. Y money no fall from the sky?

学不会

你的痛苦　我都心疼　想為你解決

擋開流言　緊握你手　想飛奔往前

我相信愛　能證明一切

夠真心　會超越時間

多付出　也多了喜悅　讓幸福蔓延

總是學不會　再聰明一點

記得自我保護　必要時候講些　善意謊言

總是學不會　真愛也有現實面

不是誰情願　就能夠解決

一次爭吵　一個心結　累積著改變　

內心疏遠　足夠秒殺　外表多濃烈

才發現愛　不代表一切

再真心　也會被阻絕

這世界　天天有詭雷　隨時會爆裂

還是學不會　少浪漫一點

拼命著想的事　未必帶來感動　或被感謝

還是學不會　解釋我最傷　最累

痛死都不願　怪誰

把每段癡情苦戀　在此刻排列面前

也感覺　不埋怨　只懷念

總是學不會　再聰明一點

記得自我保護　必要時候講些　善意謊言

不是學不會　只是覺得愛　太美

值得去沉醉　流淚

Life is meaningless

No, i'm not having any suicidal thoughts.

Just can't explain the mental torture i'm facing everyday.

Like whenever i'm watching the tv, i'd question myself "what the fuck are you doing? STUDY!"

Oh god, it's driving me crazy.

Sagittarius are really not cut out for studying.

And not to mention i'm so goddam broke? Jobless and leaching on my parents/bro's money for survival

Seriously i can't wait to start working and earn money and shop and eat and travel and continue this routine over and over againnnnnnnnnnn

To further add on to my misery, I'm having 6hours of lecture from today onwards till next tue! holymothercrapppp

And i'm not done revising any of the subjects so i guess i'll pretty much stone throughout the lectures

Zzzzzz fuck growing up. Life is already as miserable as it is. I don't know if i'm able to deal with more miserable shits as i grow older.

Actually this is just a minor contribution to my sadness... I'm actually more depressed over some other stuffs that i don't wish to say...

I think my friends, bro and mum are so sick of me telling them the same thing... lol

But i can't help it. It's not like i want to.

I also want this sadness to go? 

It's so miserable to wake up everyday and knowing that life isn't gonna get any better 

Neither will it be in the future. It's just gonna get more depressing and I'll just die in sadness. 

I have no fucking idea how to help myself.

I tried googling, setting positive quotes as my wallpaper and telling myself "Life will get better" but none of it helps.

Met up with my bunch of besties ytr and told them this sadness i was facing....

And unexpectedly shimah is facing the exact same thing as me. Not something to be happy about but it's like "OMG I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE WHO CAN TRULY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL"

Cause no matter how you tell someone about it, no one will truly understand it until they have experienced it. 

Trust me, not something that you will want to face. 

But sigh.... Will my life get better?? I really want to.

I haven't been truly happy for a longggggg time. Like happy-happy.

I don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore.

:'(

Behind every smile hides a million tears

Restore Humanity

Just watched a video about this guy named Joseph Kony, who captures children to build his children army. 

ALL FOR THE SAKE OF POWER.

Yup, that's him. SOAB

So many mixed emotions after watching the video.

Before watching, I was still wallowing in self-pity. LOL IKR

But but i felt really fortunate and yet depressed now

Like how I'm living in such a safe environment, my family by my side and all 3 meals taken care of.

Look at the kids in Africa; they are living in constant fear of being abducted by Joseph Kony, forced to kill their parents (WHATDAFAQ), become sex slaves, etc...

REALLY, REALLY? WHAT ARE WE WHINING ABOUT ACTUALLY?

Think about the kids, do they have a choice? NO. But we have!

We have something that they don't, it's called 'luck'

We should be glad we are born here and not in Africa.

We should be glad we have a HOUSE to live in.

But why are we constantly whining and being dissatisfied? 

I know i'm one of them. I whine about a lot of things like squeezy public transport, disgusting food, disgusting pple, etc....

We are the perfect example of 身在福中不知福

I should really stop whining and start appreciating all the things that I have.

All along i've been wanting to do meaningful things like helping to build schools in 3rd world countries, teaching kids how to read and etc..

But it's always "No Action Talk Only"

This time round, I'm pretty sure I will do something about it!

Maybe this coming holiday I will sign up for overseas events like this!

Anybody wanna join me? Time to earn some karma points and help the needy!

Whine so much... Might as well help the less fortunate right??

You and me, we can create a better world :)